The picture gives away the ambience at home these days. The subtle changes around are hard to miss. My wardrobe is changing and so is my mood (fluctuations). I sweat less and resultantly my face and hair feel soft. The sun looks friendly and an evening stroll manageable. Kitchen is visited often and tea cravings are on a high. The spiritual high is evident too with the beginning of ‘Kartik’ month today. Shorter days are my kind of things as sun sets early giving ample dark time to sort my chores. Summer sun make everything unbearable. House plants look little dented though.
In short, I am in my happy space till February, God willing. This in no way imply life is not acting like life. It is, with tears of joy and sorrow in tandem. Nothing to deter the gratitude though for all that life has to offer.
Apart from these mundane things mentioned, bigger revolutions are still a mystery. Self-development never feels enough. Thoughts and emotions remain as unbearable as they are when in extremes. Past pains refigure and rewiring emotional response is always a work in progress. Unconditional love has to be looked deeply, specially outside the family circle. Living in a love bubble keeps negativity at bay but this cannot be a recourse to live fuller life. Meditation eludes as it has, philanthropy is a distant dream. Working hard is abhorred as much while cravings for happy ‘family’ and ‘me’ time exist in equal measure, as always.
In a nutshell, life seems to be revolving in a loop. It’s more of a relief than sigh. For, sometimes, a linear life looks better no matter how stagnant. Especially in ever changing and sometimes scary times of 2021. Talk about change!