My Soulitude

Long absence is totally my thing!


(The image is from the internet)


Being absent from the blog for so long is totally my thing. That is if anyone cares or has been reading the blog for long to notice. If I remember correctly, I had mentioned in my opening blog post in 2011 or in one of the comments that consistency is my achilles heel. And I have not been proven wrong if blog posts are any indication.

When I have nothing to say, I don’t say. I can’t. Writing this blog is an organic process. No outcomes, no deviations. It comes from within as and when it desires. And funnily enough, I have been observing my patterns and have noted that I usually write during PMSing phase. When hormones make me all introspecting, silent, spiritual, sad, angry, and calm, all at same time. I bow to nature, existence, science whatever you may choose to call it.

So, here I am today writing nothing great but still important because this is how I feel today. Writing a random post.

Now that I am introspecting, life is seemingly good. Gratitude for everything. This is not to say there is no chasm. A lot has changed suddenly in life. A lot has happened. What a roller coaster journey it has been since 2018. One thing to another so much so that I couldn’t even document it here. At the moment, most of the aspects are balanced in life, and some are dwindling. I don’t expect a perfect life. What matters is it is a happy life, it is a contended life, it is a slow and simple life.

Sometimes, I feel like documenting my life here in this blog. What scares me is the judgements that will flow. As writing is less of a writer’s job and more of a readers’ mindset. Even typing one whatsapp message can create havoc. What I write is understood wrongly by the person reading it. No one can comprehend the feeling behind the words. Everyone squeezes the meaning from their perspective. And for a writer nothing is more painful than being misunderstood. My understanding is that I am a misunderstood person :-). What I say, what I feel, and what I come across as and what people think of me, all are unsynchronised (LOL).

But then, for whom it isn’t? This is what society is all about. And when have I thought about society. So the fears seem baseless. Then what is it that stops me from writing frequently? I simply don’t know nor do I want to analyse further. I just need to find my lost love. A love for writing that motivates me to move mountains. Will that day come? Let’s wait together.

Till next post, take care.

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