‘Joy of Anticipation.’ In simpler words, to feel happy before the actual happy event or process takes place. What is the opposite of it? The fear and sadness of something untoward about to happen. It may or may not happen but the waiting period takes a toll. I am sure there must be some phrase for that also. The waiting period of board and entrance results. A blood test report. A yes or no that may alter your life in a big way.
The last two years have involved a lot of such testing times. That waiting phase in between a relieving or stressful news. Fortunately, the balance has tilted more towards good news but not without going through the turmoil. An event can change your life remarkably. Sliding the earth beneath your feet. Last two years have been that sort only. The seed of fear placed inside the heart. The fear of mortal beings. We all live through it. We all manage to survive. We strive our best to survive. Holding onto that last thread of hope and breath. This is what we do all our lives. Jumping from one bandwagon to another. One milestone after another. And the life circle is complete before we even get time to comprehend what our life was. The cycle is over just like that. Encapsulated in societal norms.